Moment of Adoration

I don’t think you’re ready for what I have to say

I’m thinking about you almost every day

Yet I’m trying to find a better way

To tell you that I feel you like I never have

It just doesn't add up and I have done the math

Added us together then divided all the obstacles

That makes us multiplying ourselves here impossible

Minus the nonsense we always equal great love

Maybe that’s why it’s the only thing I think of

Beautiful rouge lips pressed gently against mine

When it happens it feels like we have just paused time

Let’s stop the world from moving if only for an hour

And call it daylight savings while we’re in the shower

Pardon my boldness but everything about you

Is a requisite for me not wanting to live without you

I won’t go into detail, just using my common sense

Infatuated by your design the mirror is your compliment

And I’m so confident that my words won’t equate much

Nothing I couldn't express through a mate’s touch

So I’ll adore you with my lips and know I’m sincere

That I’m thankful every moment that you spend here

Winter

I just wanted to drop a quick blurb about the winter. It has to be the most romantic season of them all. I consider winter just as sexy as summer, but with just a bit more substance. As a kid every time I "fell in love" was mid winter early spring and i always look forward to the first cold day of the year which is what I'm getting right now where I'm from (it's freezing) but the other thing i like about the winter is being able to dress warm but look Great. i think my winter outfits are the best thing i have going (typically bought on sale the at the end of the last winter- mid summer) What is your favorite season and why?

Blessings

-No

Welcome Back

I've said this before and i would like to apologize about my recent inactivity. I've just been pushing most of my Energy into making sure the final Product of Games of the Heart is something that will be enjoyable. I've always wanted to make sure that the energy is created and shared through my writing since there are only so many Hours in the day unfortunately I've sacrificed time on my Blog but i can officially say that has come to an end. I'm going to eventually annoy all of you with my thoughts :-)

Blessings

-No

Autumn’s Song

November reminds me of an event,

My love affair with autumn,

The sign that winter’s

Romance slowly takes control of your impulses.

The air changes into a scent of love’s past.

Autumn was always favorite time of year.

The passion was a cat and mouse game

Of warm, enticing embraces and semi

Plutonic chemistry combined

With a pseudo sensual entanglement

Of thoughts. The leaves diminish from

branches onto the ground

The wind blows and invokes closeness

as if either of the latter could do any harm.

Autumn is a time to reflect externally,

And introspectively, it’s a long slow kiss

A walk in the park near the lake,

A lazy Sunday afternoon.

Autumn is Love Jones,

Mo better blues and you’ve got mail rolled into each day.

It’s a reminder of what life can be like,

oxymoronically by bringing

Closure to the earth’s life for the year.

This is sweet November’s story

You are my autumn

Hiatus

Hello to all,

I've stayed in the shadows for the last month I've had a lot going on with Games of the Heart getting closer and closer to it's release. I've been trying to hit certain spots in town and try out material from GOTH. I'm happy with my response yet so much time has passed I'm not sure how anyone will feel about my latest project. I've been working on book 3 (still untitled) and I'm about 70 percent of the way done with it but I'm hoping people will still enjoy it all i can truly say is that right now in this moment I'm evolving as a writer. Moreover I'm enjoying the trail as I walk along to find out where it leads to When it's all said and done I hope that you enjoy Games and Book 3 as much as you've enjoyed anything else I've written thus far.

Blessings

No

The Outcast

This must be how the devil feels

Cast from heaven, sent to hell

For taking love for granted

Its here, in hell, I’ll dwell

This must be how the devil feels

The sky is dark and gray

Perfection was my other option,

I threw it all away.

This must be how the devil feels

Resentment, from his fall

It’s not better to have know and lost

Than to have not known heaven at all

This MUST be how the devil feels

Angry, full of despair

Knowing love,

Needing love,

Trying not to care

But if heaven would consider him

And forgive him for his wrongs

The devil would repent his sins

And praise heaven all day long

Such a Big Ego

One of the things I like about the web is I can speak my mind. Some can relate some wont but it doesn't matter I'm able to say Exactly what it is uninterrupted. One of the worst things to deal with Is a person who's self oriented. This person Believes the sun rises and sets upon their ass. We as people sometimes can be self centered but this Person is so uniquely focused on THEM that it's pretty hard to get anything in between what they think and how they feel. Those are your two options when dealing with a person like this. We all know them. But we, do them no favors by feeding into what they are Self Centered. This person Typically thinks any conflict or issue is solely because of their action or inaction and always thinks they are either right Important to everything that may be going on. Their point of view is the only way they care to see things no matter what the issue is. I'm not going to spend much time on the Self Centered person believe me they have spent enough time on themselves, But it's important to note that This trait eventually will become stale. Sadly The person who could benefit the most from this will probably never read it.

Blessings

Puppy Love

I was listening to John Coltrane's Body and Soul last night and It reminded me of what I thought love use to be . The love that we see on Television, the love that everyone talks about. Do you remember Puppy love? These days it's all work everything is hypercritical.... I remember the first time I felt what I thought was true love. it was so Intense. I was on the extreme of passion, of life, of energy. Waking up to see D. Smith (my 7th grade crush) was my... was the only reason to live. It was like the first time you go to Vegas and you win big in a short amount of time you feel on top of the world. The next person I loved even more... (so I thought, but hey I was a kid I know some of you probally fell in love every week with a diffrent boy or girl...until graduation some of you till this day ;-) )

And as my experience with love grew so did my perception of it. Eventually, I started to rationalize, be cautious, rightfully so but love was certainly regulated. Like a water faucet, I'd increase to the appropriate pace because, things... life had taught me to never just let the faucet flow unchecked and it made me realize maybe I wasn't alone. Maybe thousands of men and women have learned to look at love differently, more guardedly. Maybe some of us feel like love is similar to other dreams (like the second time you go to Vegas you can't seem to have that same rush of luck.) Some people have given up on love altogether with the believe it's not in their cards... Others have learned to appreciate the live they currently have and embrace the beautiful aspect of it.

We want an Abundance in all Areas of life, that's a part of the America Dream. When that doesn't happen we tend to feel displaced, or spend a lifetime looking for it... My love now is much differently than my love as a child. It was raw innocent and overwhelming too much for me to control at such a young age but beautiful nonetheless. Falling in love back then was a living fairytale and that's what Mr Coltrane explored in that song (in my opinion). I can't say that was entirely a good thing being so head over heels about any person. I can only hope that in this day and age of Terrorism, The Recession, and all of the seriousness of the world today that children still fall in Love

I'm RICH BIEACH checklist

I told myself I needed to finish my Manipulation convo today but I knew I'd be pressed for time and wouldn't be able to come up with a clear image of what I wanted to say so I decided to just let today Flow from the the cusp. I always think to myself how nice it would be rich. On the days when the office is hard to do I think If i had a Billion Dollars (the new million). I think we all have some checklist we run through in our mind about the first month. possibly the first 6 months... But Lately I've been trying to figure out would I really do any of those things on my I'm RICH BIEACH!! checklist. How much more exciting could 24 hours become whit a large sum of money if everyone you care about still has to work? would i want to devote that much time to my whims and desires? What would you do/buy if you had a billion dollars? Let me know

Manipulators

I'm going to get a bit personal today I have a few good friends that seem to need to hear what what I have to say so I decided to break down The Manipulator (as it goes in relationships)

Manipulator:
This person is a jackass who wants his or her cake, and your cake, and the neighbor’s cake down the road. They want to eat it but blame you for the weight he or she will gain from doing so In both of my freinds cases they want to have the woman they with right now but are with but the escape (mainly the sex) provided by the “other woman”

how do you know if you are with a manipulator? I'm glad you asked. Here are some signs I've noticed that are dead giveaways of being with a manipulator:

1. They will always turn things around on you: The worse and the most tale tale sign, normally at the peak of the manipulation which is why I started here because If you read this and thought to yourself “Damn that’s (insert name here) GET OUT you’re being played on a slew of levels we can’t get into today.
2. They are the victim in any circumstance: For example both of my homegirls have men who are not available to them in any way shape or form and they are conned to stay in the guy’s life because “he’s confused” or “tormented” or “not happy with his current” what he hasn’t had the balls to say is “ I want to stay at home and make you a glorified booty call” women manipulators are typically the damsel looking for captain Saveahoe. All manipulators are experts at the "one upping" If your dog just died and you're sad, that's nothing they just lost a litter of dogs and cats in a house fire.
3. They start off perfect then take it all way: This is a classic Manipulation bait and should be first on this list because while you're floating on cloud nine they are laying the groundwork for removing those clouds this is all a setup for the next step
4. They tear you down: They can't be the same person anymore because YOU need to do X or they want to be in a relationship with you but Y is standing in the way. all of this equals Bullshit. There's nothing wrong with you It's part of the ploy because they are trying to get you to do the next step
5. The problem is solved by meeting their need: No compromise if it's men it's mainly sex if it's women it could be a ton of things including sex but not limited to. Depending on the woman it could be money company affection anything. You bend over backwards to keep them pacified. What we don't normally see until it's too late is All of the things you have to do to meet their need just patches their "problem" with you and most people are willing to do this becasue they are chasing the faint trail of that cloud 9 feeling that was removed by this person
6. Excuse for not being able to make a decision: These people don't like acountability they like choices but don't like choosing. I'm of the firm believer that you should never have to force a person to be with you to make a choice between you and another person but it happens, and when it does happen you're normally dealing with a Manipulator who's a master at A-E which brings me to F and G
7. Guilt: Manipulators are the best in the business at distributing guilt. They will be blunt or coy either way you walk away feeling like there's something you could of done differently or better and this is how they keep you inside of the web of deception that you can get caught in
8. No sense of accountability: This has been touched earlier but to reiterate these people can say one thing today. the next day swear up and down they never said it. This will drive the rest of us that live in this place I like to call the Real World insane. moreover Nothing is ever their fault. ever

There are a few more signs but I'd like your input on this as well. In part 2 I'll discuss ways to avoid and remove a manipulator from your life

Blessings